I’m sure any one coming across my blog now is surprised to see a new post up. Well, this is my final post. It’s curtain call for my blog. I had a good time keeping a blog when I first started, but I can’t keep up with it anymore, as is evident, and so I’m calling it quits. I recently lost one of my best friends who I loved very much and considered a brother. He was the only one of my non internet friends who ever knew I had a blog. So, my final post will also be my final goodbye letter to one of the greatest guys I’ve ever had the privilege of knowing.
It still seems like a surreal nightmare that you are no longer here. My heart still aches everyday knowing that I’ll never be able to speak to you again, hang out with you and even laugh with you. I may have not told you so much when you were here, but you were my best friend and my brother. I loved you more than you may have known while here on earth, but that I’m sure you know now that you are in heaven.
I will forever treasure our memories together. From all the late drinking debauchery to the times just hanging out watching movies. I still remember the fun we had the first time we met and how I knew then that we would always be friends. We clicked right away from our similar taste in beer (of course) to our love of football. Without you I may have never traveled to New York, Maryland, Chicago, St. Louis, Canada…etc. You were the one that made even the shortest trips fun. Even when it was watching your Chicago Bears trample all over my St. Louis Rams.
You were always the friend I could call to just come hang out and watch a movie. You were the one that helped motivate me to get to the gym by being my gym buddy. Together we managed to drag ourselves there everyday. Even Saturdays…because we usually rewarded ourselves with a beer afterwards. Our bar, Poor Richards, will never be the same without you. A lot of things won’t be the same without you.
I now sit and go through the pictures I have of us together and remember the fun times. We’re pretty inebriated in them because that was the only way I could get you to take pics. But I’m glad I was able to force some on you because now I have them to look at and reminisce and cry. I’m still doing a lot of crying and as I type this I’m crying now. I know you’re looking down on me and telling me to “man up” (silly) and I will. I just need time to be sad and to be angry that you were taken.
I will do my best to keep your memory alive through the game nights, the football watching, the beer drinking, and the late night Wii play. I will continue to make sure your mom and sister are doing okay as I love them like family too. I know I’ll get through this, it will just be a slow process. Frank, I will never have another friend like you again. And even though our time together wasn’t as long as I wished, I’m forever grateful to have had you in my life. And I know that whenever I fall, as I tend to do, that you will be watching me from above…laughing. Keep an eye out on me up there.
Keep a New Castle on ice for me for when we meet again. I love you.